Lana goes to a Montessori School Monday through Friday, from 8AM to 12PM. Her first week was not bad at all. I guess she figured that it was fun. The second week; however, was torture for myself and her. She went through the clinging stage where she did not want to let go of my hand. She would cry as soon as I parked the car in front of the school. One morning, I had to stay there until 8:30 because she was hugging me the whole time. I felt absolutely horrible for having to put her through this, after all she was only 2 years and 4 months at the time. I spoke with the school director and she assured me that Lana was doing just fine. A little cry here and there was really normal. She had trouble following directions and this frustrated me because in my mind, my daughter was smart and always followed MY directions. I had to accept the fact that one of the reasons she is going to this school was not only to learn academically but also to socialize with other children and be able to listen to other adults other than Mommy and Daddy. This went on for about a month. I remember speaking to a couple of parents who have kids that go to the same school mentioning that their kids went through the same thing. And then they told me, that the time will come when they will no longer even acknowledge that you dropped them off to school. That was a scary thought.
This week, the school has a new student. Her mom looks exactly how I looked when Lana first started, same with her daughter. I just think to myself, "we went through that." Then today, my most dreadful thought came true. As I dropped Lana to the door, she grabbed her lunch box from me and quickly said, "bye mommy!" I insisted on a hug but all I kept getting from her were those two words. She looked as if she was embarrassed that she had a clingy mom! It made me want to tear up, but I walked away like a big girl and told my baby goodbye. *SIGH*
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